Second, I used to love church and my religion and I wanted to be an altar boy and then a priest – but that was a big no-no in the Catholic church and no one has ever been able to explain to me why I'm not as worthy as any random boy.
This pretty much exactly describes my experience. Right around the time I went through my very, very religious phase was also just at altar server age (11-13 or so), and I used to be so resentful of the boys serving who clearly wanted to be anywhere but up there. I would have loved it, but I wasn't welcome. Of course, now there are altar girls (if you're in the right diocese), and they look bored too. But at least they can be equally bored with the boys! Nowadays, I sort of sporadically stick around; still trying to decide if the good outweighs the bad. After all, I have gay friends who haven't yet left the Catholic church in disgust -- what are my problems compared to theirs? So I go to a very liberal Jesuit parish; it helps. :)
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Date: 2005-06-27 05:08 pm (UTC)This pretty much exactly describes my experience. Right around the time I went through my very, very religious phase was also just at altar server age (11-13 or so), and I used to be so resentful of the boys serving who clearly wanted to be anywhere but up there. I would have loved it, but I wasn't welcome. Of course, now there are altar girls (if you're in the right diocese), and they look bored too. But at least they can be equally bored with the boys! Nowadays, I sort of sporadically stick around; still trying to decide if the good outweighs the bad. After all, I have gay friends who haven't yet left the Catholic church in disgust -- what are my problems compared to theirs? So I go to a very liberal Jesuit parish; it helps. :)