Here I Am

Hi everyone! Thanks for putting up with my woe-is-me feelings in my last entry. I really do try to keep that out of here, but sometimes it spills over. I don't know how I feel about this therapy thing. Until I started last year, I might've been depressed, but I wasn't emotional and crying all the time and remembering things better forgotten. And yeah, logically, I know that's not true, but I was raised hardcore Irish Catholic and you do not talk about feelings and such.

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Now to the main point of this: I am hoping for a favor from y'all. I've been trying to get back into my regular writing to get back on the course to get published. Anyway, I entered this contest where you provided your first line of the current first draft and through each voting round, you get closer to winning a chance to work with some professionals in a writing workshop. I would really love a chance at winning this. And I would love y'all forever and ever (okay, I already do) if you would vote for me.

Link: http://www.savvyauthors.com/vb/content.php?242-First-Step-Contest
My Entry: 58. Looking around the makeshift living room of their apartment, at the broken furniture and holes in the wall, Lauren turned her attention to her brother's annoyed gaze and offered, "Hey, it's not easy saving the world."

I will warn that when you click on the "Vote Here" link at the top, for some reason they remove the number to help you find it. I don't know why.

SO yes, please vote! And please feel free to pass it along. And hey, if you think my line sucks and can't bring yourself to vote for me, just vote for the line you like more. Someone might as well will if I'm terrible. But I hope I'm not.

SO vote here: http://www.savvyauthors.com/vb/content.php?242-First-Step-Contest

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I'm playing catch up otherwise. Work has been insane. Like working through lunch, coming in early and staying late. Fun times. Hopefully, after this week, things will get back to my normal level of busy.

Anyone willing to beta 1600 words of Roswell fic? It's Isabel gen set in the aftermath of the show finale. I'd need it back tomorrow afternoon so I could make the edits and get it posted in time for a challenge. Yes, as always, I'm only finishing at the last minute. Go me!

ETA: Found a helper!

So I will be calling on some of my bandom girls to help me with a fic for iamtheenemy's birthday. Last year I wrote her a fic where she has a Heroes power and goes on the road with Hiro and Ando. And this year, since she's been sucked into bandom (and often tries to pull me completely in), I'm writing her a fic where Hiro and Steph have to use their powers to save the members of Fall Out Boy from Sylar. Except my knowledge of Patrick and Pete is limited to all Steph bombards me with (or I take in via osmosis from people on my friends list)...so will anyone want to help me get their voices right? I've still got some time until her birthday (Three weeks?)

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This weekend is over and I'm not sure where it went. Being sick Saturday really messed me up. Today, I went to a movie, watched Make Me a Supermodel (getting my mother and sister addicted), and watched one of my Netflix movies. And now I'm dreading work. So much to do and I just...two days and the new girl starts. Soon my pain will be lessened.

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Thanks to a gift certificate and Barnes & Noble's buy 2 get 1 free dvd sale, I will soon have Stargate Atlantis seasons 1, 2, and 3 in my hands! Woo-hoo! Sheppard! Ronon! Hot boys!

And this would be why I'm poor. Because I have a tv on dvd addiction. Actually, I just have a tv addiction. And a pretty boy addiction. And oh, I find myself thinking about Dean Winchester more than is healthy (or so people tell me).

Originally, I was going to write a Supernatural, Sam/Dean story for undermistletoe. My prompt is Snow White and I figured I could try to work it into the storyline premise of Bedtime Stories. But I decided against that seeing as that ( in case this is still spoilery... )

So then I came up with a different idea based around the boys and the prompt, but I'm having trouble making it come out in a decent manner on the page.

So I'm thinking of maybe going with either Heroes or X-Men as the fandom. Maybe that will work a little easier...as I keep thinking, fairy tales was just done on Supernatural and it was done better than I can do it. Le sigh.

I really need to finish it though as I want to get it beta'd before my posting day of Monday. Must write. Must write. Must write.

Maybe I'll make it Peter/Nathan as really, my mechanism for coping from that episode on Monday night, is to want to write lots of Peter/Nathan living happily ever after.

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Is Supernatural new tonight? I thought the Christmas episode was next week, but some people have been mentioning tonight? I'm recording some Christmas movie if it's a repeat, but I will cry buckets if I end up with a cheesy holiday movie (Oh, I admit it, I love them all) but no Sam and Dean.

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Also with Supernatural: I know some of you have already responded and I have those saved/downloaded...but I'm working on a holiday project of sorts and was looking for which songs make you think of Sam and Dean's relationship?, whether it's wincesty or just brotherly.

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Finally, anyone know how to set up an RSS feed livejournal account. iamtheenemy and I were discussing possibly setting up a del.icio.us account for polyfandomrecs since we tend to save our recs until we have a batch, but we know some people like instant access...so we thought that might cover the best of both worlds.

I think the boy has fallen in love with the new plasma television in our living room. He's currently playing XBox 360 and he keeps going, "Dude, this is awesome."

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SPN FANS! I have a request...

Please send me the songs that make you think of Sam and Dean's relationship, whether it's just very close brothers or wincesty sorts. For example, the new Carrie Underwood song, "twisted" made me immediately think of the boys. I'm working on a project of sorts and I would love some input.

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I'm considering running another round of schmoopfest in February, once the holiday challenges are over and people have had the opportunity to relax a little. Because schmoop in many fandoms is always a very good thing.

Also, when I was chatting with aliaspiral the other day, I mentioned running a Captain Awesome ficathon for Chuck fans. Mostly, it's because I adore Captain Awesome and really want some Ellie/Devon fic (which I'm totally getting from aliaspiral - she's writing me porn and I'm writing her first date fic).

It's never a good sign when I can't remember what day of the week it is. And why is it only Wednesday? Surely, the weekend is almost here.

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Last night's NCIS was okay. I was only half paying attention though and I don't think I missed anything. So I'm not sure that I really care. On a fannish note for it, I think I'm slowly moving from Gibbs/DiNozzo shipper to McGee/DiNozzo. Quite frankly, Tony should just hook up with everyone. He's adorable.

Yesterday's All My Children was great! I love Aidan/Greenlee! They are my happy place. And I love that Greenlee won't have to lift a finger to get back at Kendall and Zach because they're going to self destruct instead. One Life to Live is pretty stagnant at the moment for me. Not caring about the whole Marcie on the run thing or Cole & Marty disappearing. And General Hospital needs to get rid of Elizabeth because I HATE HER. The rage she causes me. And she makes me hate Jason, which I don't want to do.

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Beta Request: I wrote a Supernatural Dean/Carmen fic and I haven't heard from any of my betas if they can even do it...so anyone willing to beta five pages of schmoopy het? It's probably going to need some work, I'll warn, because het in Supernatural is not my area of expertise.

In the meantime, I shall go work on my Mix & Match ficlets.

Hey guys! So yes, I'm completely dumb and I need to make a post over at polyfandomrecs that will be a sticky post that stays at the top. Now Steph tried it and it didn't seem to work for her - so how does one do this?

Hey guys! Is anyone available for a quick beta? It's 1000 words of Jsquared domestic fluff. It's for my Picture Is Worth 1000 words story. I waited until the last minute and my regular beta isn't around.

So yes, I'd greatly appreciate anyone willing to help. If you agree, feel free to rip apart and make edits as you deem appropriate.

ETA: All taken care of! Thanks guys!

Anyone up for a quick beta of six pages of Jared/Jensen in the various Impalas on the set. It's mostly just porn (or the teasings of porn as that's what I am...a tease), no real discernible plot to this one. But I'd love someone to do a quick read through so I could post it asap (as it's already a day late.)

Thanks!

I'm still recovering from Supernatural. That episode was so damn good. I think it was my favorite so far. And yeah, the monster of the week was somewhat left unhandled at the end, but that's not why I watch this show anyway. I watch this show for exactly what they gave us last night. The brotherly and familial love and the wonderful characters and their relationships with each other...dude, I seriously think the writers of this show have looked into my brain and journals about what I love about things and my weird obsession with the sibling relationship.

So freaking good, people.

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I have a huge favor to ask of the graphically-oriented on my friends list. I have three requests and I'm more than willing to write ficlets in return. Because I can't make graphics to save my life, but I'm an okay writer sometimes. hee.

so yeah...

1) An icon of my winchester family - sam, dean, and papa. I don't have one with papa and I'd really like one. Someone's helping me with this one!

2) An icon of the ultimate RPS OT4 - like four little boxes in the icon, each with a little picture of Jensen, Jared, Mike, and Tom. Because they *are* the OT4, my friends!

3) I'm working on another story in the Winchester Meets Halliwell series and I wondered if some able-bodied person would mind making me a graphic for it with Chris, Wyatt, Sam, and Dean. hee. Someone's helping me with this one!

Again, I will love you forever if you can help me and I will totally write you fic in return and thank you immensely and possibly build a shrine in your honor made of paperclips at my desk!

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Have I mentioned how much I love Supernatural? Because I do. And I need to write more fic for those boys. Maybe work on those plot bunnies of doom I have. Though really, the Chris muse won't like it and will remind me that I still have a lot more stories to write for fanfic100.

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Yeah, I'm a little late to the meme party, but I wanted to do this. And I reserve the right to actually write a fic if inspired. Hee.

The Title Meme:

If you make up titles for stories I didn't write, I will respond with details of those non-written stories. Feel free to include fandom/character/pairing/rating stipulations.

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Alrighty, off to do some work and then write some.

And tonight, more pretty on the tv. Ace and Chris...Chris and Ace. Yummy!