almost made it
Sep. 11th, 2006 08:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tommygirlI made it through almost the entire day without breaking into tears. I knew it was coming this year. I'm usually pretty good about keeping myself together and keeping the focus off me. I'm not the only person to lose someone, I'm no different from so many others...
But this year there was so much emphasis on the five-year-anniversary. From my friends. From the media. From the world.
And when my boss, at the beginning of our meeting, asked us to take a few moments of silence to remember what had happened, I had to get up and walk away. They all know about Tommy because I had to take off that first year to go to NYC.
But then after, they all kept asking me if I was okay. Like I was going to break.
And that's not me because he wouldn't want it to be me, he hated seeing anyone sad. He'd tell me some joke and we'd laugh and get these looks from everyone because we dared to laugh on this day.
I promise tomorrow I will be back to my normal fangirl self. But in the meantime, do me a favor. DOn't watch that ABC docudrama. It's crap and it's a dishonor to everyone who died that day.
But this year there was so much emphasis on the five-year-anniversary. From my friends. From the media. From the world.
And when my boss, at the beginning of our meeting, asked us to take a few moments of silence to remember what had happened, I had to get up and walk away. They all know about Tommy because I had to take off that first year to go to NYC.
But then after, they all kept asking me if I was okay. Like I was going to break.
And that's not me because he wouldn't want it to be me, he hated seeing anyone sad. He'd tell me some joke and we'd laugh and get these looks from everyone because we dared to laugh on this day.
I promise tomorrow I will be back to my normal fangirl self. But in the meantime, do me a favor. DOn't watch that ABC docudrama. It's crap and it's a dishonor to everyone who died that day.
