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Sep. 12th, 2004
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Sep. 12th, 2004 07:04 pmIt's been a hard weekend for me. Hard in the sense that while yesterday was still extremely hard for me...after three years it still feels like just yesterday where we were all convinced that he got out somehow, that in all the confusion he just couldn't get a hold of anyone. But I think we all knew that wasn't true the moment the towers fell...but here I am three years later and there are still times that it hits me he's really gone and that he won't be emailing me with some strange story that he'd give me permission to "use for future stories and screenplays for the small fee of an introduction to Heather Locklear."
It was also hard because I had fun yesterday. Ellen, the almost five-year-old, was visiting with me yesterday for her birthday. I can't make her big Dora party, so I was spending time with her then...and we had a good time. And then I came home last night and it just struck me that he doesn't get to do those sorts of things...and all those familiar thoughts run through my head and I'm back on that day.
And then I think about our President and how he uses this to further his political career and agenda of fear. I hate him for that. I hate that he could use a tragedy to make people so afraid they'll overlook everything else.
Anyway, my writing most definitely reflects the past day or two and I've written some real angst that i'm not sure I'll ever post or not, but it was cathartic.
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I wasn't around this weekend so hope everyone else had a good weekend and said a prayer (no matter what religion you are) for all the families and victims from three years ago yesterday.
It was also hard because I had fun yesterday. Ellen, the almost five-year-old, was visiting with me yesterday for her birthday. I can't make her big Dora party, so I was spending time with her then...and we had a good time. And then I came home last night and it just struck me that he doesn't get to do those sorts of things...and all those familiar thoughts run through my head and I'm back on that day.
And then I think about our President and how he uses this to further his political career and agenda of fear. I hate him for that. I hate that he could use a tragedy to make people so afraid they'll overlook everything else.
Anyway, my writing most definitely reflects the past day or two and I've written some real angst that i'm not sure I'll ever post or not, but it was cathartic.
**
I wasn't around this weekend so hope everyone else had a good weekend and said a prayer (no matter what religion you are) for all the families and victims from three years ago yesterday.