as we all try to make it through...

( Ani said it better than I could...so I quote her on this day )

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I'm trying really hard not to focus on the sad and the loss and the near-misses and the ones that didn't miss. My life has been changed by 9/11, not just the friend I lost in NYC, or the friends I nearly lost at both WTC and Pentagon...but the way the world has changed, not always for the better.

But I'm trying not to think about that.

Instead, I wanted to focus on how lucky I am, how fortunate I am to have so many people in my life that care about me, how I was very lucky to know my friend at all.

So...

Love you all. Take a few minutes today and make sure to say that to the people that matter. Because life is short and remarkable and it sometimes it needs to be said.

And now I'll stop being maudlin.

almost made it

I made it through almost the entire day without breaking into tears. I knew it was coming this year. I'm usually pretty good about keeping myself together and keeping the focus off me. I'm not the only person to lose someone, I'm no different from so many others...

But this year there was so much emphasis on the five-year-anniversary. From my friends. From the media. From the world.

And when my boss, at the beginning of our meeting, asked us to take a few moments of silence to remember what had happened, I had to get up and walk away. They all know about Tommy because I had to take off that first year to go to NYC.

But then after, they all kept asking me if I was okay. Like I was going to break.

And that's not me because he wouldn't want it to be me, he hated seeing anyone sad. He'd tell me some joke and we'd laugh and get these looks from everyone because we dared to laugh on this day.

I promise tomorrow I will be back to my normal fangirl self. But in the meantime, do me a favor. DOn't watch that ABC docudrama. It's crap and it's a dishonor to everyone who died that day.