my heart is an ouchie...

[tommygirl]

Okay, so we all knew that I wasn't going to not watch Supernatural.



Episode 2.21 - All Hell Breaks Loose

Eric Kripke is a motherfucking bastard. He's so lucky I love him otherwise...oooh, he'd be dead. He's trying to kill us!

I knew going in that this episode would destroy me based just on the preview we got last week. That's why I was thinking of avoiding it. And on one hand, I really wish I had avoided it because I couldn't stop thinking about that ending last night. It killed me.

See, when I said I wanted a Sam and Dean hug, I did not mean like that.

Also wanted to wait because I'm not into spoilers, but I feel like I need to know what happens and I'm not sure I can wait a week. I'm trying to avoid them, but I feel like I might need to prepare myself.

now I shall try to make sense:

I loved the beginning with Dean sending Sam into the dinner and yelling for pie. I loved Sam's bitchface, like "why do I love this fool" that he gives him before going inside.

I love Sam's worries about Dean, that something's happened to him (because you know Sam totally believes/knows that Dean would never let Sam go without a fight).

I love Andy. He and Dean totally would get along. I think it's why Sam tends to shoot him that "you are the bane of my existence" look too. Who is writing me the Andy goes on the road with Sam and Dean, which annoys Sam and makes him jealous of their rapport? Anyone? I need happy fic, people.

I love Ava. I love evil Ava even better. I'm shocked it took Sam that long to put it together, but I think it's more of not wanting to *believe* it.

So they're all battling to be the *one* soldier? Uh why just one soldier?

And Mary did know the demon, which explains the "i'm sorry" she offered Sam in Home, but how? And did John know that Mary knew about the YED? You get answers and then more questions.

I love Dean getting the vision from Andy. I love that Bobby comes immediately to help the boys. Say what you want about John Winchester, but even when they hated him, his friends were there for him and his kids, dropping everything else.

I'm trying not to talk about the end because I'm not sure I can articulate without a lot of pain. I'm not a crier, people, but that last scene just ripped me apart last night, especially if you take it into the context of Dean let go of the fantasy because his Sam needed him...and then Sam is taken from him.

but the look on Sam's face when he hears Dean's voice? So adorable. And then jensen just killed me dead.

DEAD.

Now again, I don't know any spoilers, and please don't tell me any, but last night I couldn't turn my brain off and began to simply ponder/hypothesize.

I'm wondering if Dean doesn't find a way to undo everythign that John did in In My Time of Dying - because in his mind that's where everything started to get screwed up, that his father never should've died for him. So he comes to think that if he were dead instead of John, Sam would still be alive. I'm wondering if that scene in the preview with the YED isn't them both agreeing that Sam alive is better and setting about making it happen. Because both of them want Sam, just for different reasons, and Dean has faith that Sam will overcome the supposed "evil" in him no matter what...so he thinks the sacrifice would be worthwhile.

Plus, in hindsight of the last episode with Dean stabbing himself with the blessed knife with the blood on it after looking at Sam? I'm not sure that was an accident.

So what was everyone's thoughts/theories/etc on the episode? Again, please no spoilers. While I'm not sure I'll stay spoiler-free at the moment (mostly out of my own lack of discipline after last night), I'm going to try for the time being.



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After Supernatural, I watched some other stuff as well...



Last night was all about Mark and Amanda. they are awesome BFFs. I love them so much. I love that Mark was jealous of Amanda's new gay and that he tried to grab Christina to come with him. I love that while he always gives her a hard time, he tried to make her understand how special she was and stood up for her...and that Amanda followed his lead.

Oh Daniel. It's like you never learn with these things. I worry about him. And he really just wants to feel like he's the most important one for once rather than it always being about Alex.

Betty in Mexico was enjoyable. Hallucinating about Henry. ::giggles::

I don't understand why she is so surprised her father kept the truth about her grandmother from her though. The man didn't tell them about a lot of things - why would that be any different?

It was sweet though, the scene with her and her grandmother.

Bradford's outfit made me laugh. mark being forced to hit on him made me laugh even harder. I love that he'll probably get engaged and be killed by Alexis' hitman right after.

I really hope we get some betty/henry next week. Charlie can go away now.



I also got caught up on the last two episodes of Brothers & Sisters. I love this show. I love the relationships between all the siblings.



I loved the scene with Tommy, Kevin, Justin, and Saul sitting with the glass of wine. They were just being together, joking and talking about how proud they were of him.

And I love Nora and Holly. They have such a weird relationship with one another. And the fact that they try to upset the other/one-up the other...and yet in the end, they both feel bad about it...

But the food fight with the boys randomly coming in and out? That was hysterical. I loved it.

I'm not sure how I feel about Becca, considering Holly was right and she did put the moves on Joe. I'm not sure I understand her motivation - whether she truly did feel guilty about it or if it was all just a manipulation to get an "in" with the Walkers somehow. But on the same token, Joe did act on it at first and that's his own doing.

The previews for next week...poor Tommy and Julia.

And this family cannot catch a break. Good lordy.



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Now I shall go read others' thoughts on Supernatural and stuff.

Anyone want to rec me some happy, schmoopy Sam/Dean? I could use it today!

Comments

[skuf.livejournal.com]

when I said I wanted a Sam and Dean hug, I did not mean like that.
Kripke/Gamble are rotfl and going, "Hey, they said they wanted a hug!".

So they're all battling to be the *one* soldier? Uh why just one soldier?
No, no, general - of the army the demon is going to round up. It begs the question what they, as humans, have that the demon doesn't have, himself.

Plus, in hindsight of the last episode with Dean stabbing himself with the blessed knife with the blood on it after looking at Sam? I'm not sure that was an accident.
Wait, what, why?

[storydivagirl.livejournal.com]

Okay, so it's the general of his army. And then it makes me wonder how the mothers fit in. Like did all the mothers know the YED or was Mary special somehow?

Wait, what, why?

Dean is sacrificing his fantasy/dream self for Sam mostly, is how I took it. Yes, saving other people as well is important to him, but I took the fact that the last person he looked at before stabbing himself being Sam was that he was going back to protect his Sam, that he would sacrifice everything for that cause. So now I'm wondering if that's going to play into part two of the finale.

[skuf.livejournal.com]

Right, I think there's every chance Dean is going to be willing to do just about everything to get Sam back!

[storydivagirl.livejournal.com]

YEah. I think the YED is going to seriously regret the day he underestimated Dean Winchester. I have no doubt that Dean will keep the promise he made in Devil's Trap to walk into hell and kill every single one of them if they hurt his family.

[cricketkate.livejournal.com]

I love Mark and Amanda with all my heart. I love that they hate everybody and love each other fiercely. I love that they completely tear each other down - and let no one else do the same. I LOVE them.

[storydivagirl.livejournal.com]

Exactly! they're like family. (Or me and my best gay!) You can mock them and occasionally rip them apart, but god help anyone else who even tries to do it.

[arabiana.livejournal.com]

This is the list of what I've been going through since last night. *grabs another tissue*

http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=arabiana&keyword=schmoop&filter=all

<333 RE

[storydivagirl.livejournal.com]

ooooh, thank you darling!

::Grabs tissue of her own::

And this is why I wanted to wait to watch, but I have no self control when it comes to these boys.

[girlmostlikely.livejournal.com]

See, when I said I wanted a Sam and Dean hug, I did not mean like that.

I KNOW. TOMMY!! *weepy*

I loved Sam's bitchface, like "why do I love this fool" that he gives him before going inside.

Ahhh! Dean is a dork and Sam knows it and LOVES HIM MADLY FOR IT.

Evil!Ava was awesome!!

The end. Can't speak. Will cry again. *bites lip*

[storydivagirl.livejournal.com]

Seriously dude, that scene has plagued my brain today ALL DAY. I'm a wee bit attached to those boys and gah.

(Is it sad that I took off next Friday because I think I'll need to recuperate? Hee)

Oh, he totally loves Dean so much and that's why he was so going to get the pie and then smear it all over Dean's...

[subtle--sarcasm.livejournal.com]

The Henry-hallucination was hot! :D
I love Marc and Amanda so much, they are such adorable BFFs. ♥

Marc being forced to hit on Bradford was one of the funniest things ever.

[dragonsinger.livejournal.com]

*Shakes head furiously* There has to be a twist. I refuse to believe otherwise. *Sniffles* Andy, Ellen, Ash, SAM!!!!