writing memories

[tommygirl]

I've been going through all my old disks and cds of stories and the like over the past few days. It's such a bizarre thing to stumble upon stories that you wrote five years ago and feel so detached from it at points that you almost read it as someone who had nothing to do with its creation.

I feel good saying that I've come along way with my writing since I started in fandom (and all the practice fandom has provided has definitely improved my regular writing as well), but I'm definitely not as productive as I once was. I wonder if it's the fandom - the fact that I was only really in one fandom actively (Nsync) for the majority of the time - or if it's that life has changed, I'm busier or just lazier.

It was fun re-reading some of the stuff though. I was talking to Steph iamtheenemy last night about this as I wondered aloud if it's wrong to enjoy re-reading your own stuff. I mean, I know we all write for ourselves in fandom to an extent - though I do maintain that by posting it anywhere that someone else can read, you are also writing to entertain others - but I was just, "Wow, this writing is pretty good. Wow, I really like these characters." And I guess that's good since I created them and all. Heh.

I also did a bunch of edits to Trouble In My Head as to avoid actually writing the remainder of the chapter. Would it be wrong to allow Frankie to remain in the picture forever? Who needs Justin anyway? Just because he thinks he's being all noble and "protecting" Laney - maybe he should suffer for a very long time.

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Much writing to do:

-next chapter of novel
-finish chapter of TIMH
-finish Steph's holiday gift (Hee-hee, i'm a bit late, but so is she)
-finish Sarkney story
-begin charmed flasfic
-finish ficlet requests
-kill self...er...write

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It's insane how much one misses in fandom in one weekend of being away from the computer. It's almost sick - worse, that I was going through withdrawal and the boy kept looking at me strangely from time to time.

Comments

[piyo-halliwell.livejournal.com]

After reading your post, I decided to re-read some of my old work and I must say, I agree with what you said. Even though what I read wasn't five years old, it was as if I had never wrote what I was reading. My writing itself has improved as well, into the style I am comfortable with now. I guess, in a round-about way, I'm thanking you for posting so that I could look back at what I've done and how far I've come. Even though I have much still to learn.

[storydivagirl.livejournal.com]

Well, you're welcome. I think it's really interesting to go back over my writing from time to time - see how I've progressed, see the same mistakes that I can't seem to stop making, etc...

The funny ones are always those stories I wrote in high school chock full of romantic angst. heh.