working things out the *write* way (i'm so punny sometimes)

[tommygirl]

I've decided that I have a tendency to focus on daddy/daughter relationships in my stories a lot. A lot.. I would say that if I had one reoccurring pattern or theme for my protagonists, it's that they all have a rack full of issues that necessitate handling.

I can't help but wonder if this is some sort of warped way to work out my own daddy issues, but I'm not sure...because the protagonists are never dealing with the loss so much as the neglect, the anger, or the distance they feel exists between them and the parental unit. I don't have that so much. It would make more sense if I kept killing off the fathers in my case--if the dad died when the child was young like mine--then I could have simple answer to it all.

I know that we write what we know and I make no qualms that the dysfunction in my family running rampant at all times has fueled my writing and the sort of stories that pop out of my brain...but last night as I was lying in bed, taking a red pen to my latest chapter of my novel, it hit me. I've got some weird daddy issues that continuously appear in my stuff. And I wonder if it's the potential of having daddy issues that I cling to. It's something I don't get to have. I don't get to have the fights or the pushing the father off the pedestal on which he stood. I don't have the right to a burning anger for him leaving me behind because his death wasn't by choice so you can't really hold him accountable...

It's just a weird thing. And this rambling most likely makes no sense whatsoever, but it was something I observed recently. The daddy card in my stories. I don't do that with the mother and I've got tons of crazy stories and anecdotes about my mother I could share. Why is that?

::shrugs::

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In other news, I rewatched the season finale of alias last night.



I still think too much happened within one hour, especially after the way this season dragged out at some points. It was as though JJ and the other writers realized they wasted about ten episodes on things viewers don't care about (like reshowing the same actions from Lauren's POV--like I freaking gave a rat's ass!) and had to make up for it to get the characters to where they needed to be by the finale. It was just...oddly paced at points.

I could've lived without the Vaughn/Sydney kissing. It didn't really fit the surroundings and it wasn't really heartfelt at all like the kiss between them when SD-6 was raided.

Is Lauren really dead or will this be another peapod Francie thing? I hope she's dead. I hated her character from the beginning (and not because of her relationship with Vaughn either--it was more that she had no personality...and when they tried to rectify that, she was made evil and then I really hated her) and I don't want to have to suffer through anything more with her.

I refuse to accept that SpyDaddy is evil. I refuse. He's not. And I don't think he would've sanctioned the Covenant thing as mission, knowing that Sydney would be tortured for months. I just don't buy it. Jack is not Sloane. He's not completely crazy.

Or at least, I didn't think he was, but I guess we'll find out in seven months or so.

Ack! Seven months! What will I do with myself on Sunday nights after Charmed?



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I'm debating on whether to continue with the ficlet requests to try and crank out some more of Trouble In My Head. I can't decide. I'll open the file and see if I can force myself out of this black hole of Chapter Six that I've fallen in, but I don't know.

Comments

[skylarstone.livejournal.com]

It's probably the same reason I tend to utilize a girl who struggled to get away from her hometown. I think possibly we try to figure out what we could do/could have done differently to get us certain places. Our characters aren't going to react the same ways that we have, necessarily, and so we're trying to relegate our demons to them in some way, perhaps? I usually write the mother's in stories fairly similar to my own...maybe it's just introducing something of the familiar to a fictional place?