I shall focus on happy...

Thanks for the good work thoughts. Things are just...not good...right now and I'm not sure what to do. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason and that karma comes around. I am clinging to these things.

But now I shall focus on happy, good things. Because I miss happy, good things.

1.


These boys always make me happy and they love each other so much and just...oh, there is never enough Jared/Jensen or Sam/Dean schmoop in the world but y'all provide me with great amounts of it!

2. All of you because you rock and you offer encouragement and you're just awesome. I love you all. I really do.

3. Army Wives is coming out on dvd in June. It's the lifetime series that has Drew Fuller as the perfect husband and has Gordon from SPN as the one guy "army wife" in the group and features some interesting characters. Plus, did I mention Drew Fuller?

4. I'm a tad bit behind on my Supernatural reading, but I highly recommend pheebs1's Supernatural version of PS I Love You. It's Sam/Dean and it's sad and wonderful and just the end is so perfect.

5. I'm mailing my check for winchestercon tomorrow! And I'm totally going to get ladybug218 (And Mylia!!!) to come hang out with me there. And I can't wait to see some of you again and to meet even more of you...because it was so much fun.

what is this sleep thing...

I really should be sleeping. I'm tired, but my mind is still turning and turning with thinky thoughts. So instead, I'm reading fic (never a bad thing, especially when it involves my wonderful OTPs in schmoopy circumstances) and half-watching West Wing season one. And say what you will about Aaron Sorkin and how the show went off track at points - I wouldn't disagree - but when it was on its game, it was so damn good. Aaron Sorkin is so good at the banter and relationships between characters...well, the ones that don't randomly disappear. And season one and two of West Wing are among my favorite bits of television.

Oh Josh. Oh Sam. Oh Donna. Oh Leo.

I just love everyone and miss them so much.

And as much as I love Brothers & Sisters and Rob Lowe on it...he will always be Sam Seaborne to me (and Sodapop Curtis).