Here I Am

I'm slipping in my Supernatural obsessive love lately. Last week I didn't see the episode until Saturday and this week I might not get to watch it until then either. Normally, I start it at 9:20pm, late enough that I can watch without commercials...but the past two weeks, I'm either exhausted or watching the Flyers fuck up the last period of their play-offs game.

Yes, that's right. I love Flyers hockey more than Sam and Dean. I think it's because I've been a Flyers fan since the womb and Sam & Dean have only been around for three years. It's a dedication thing.

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I'm hoping to do some writing this weekend. The last few weekends I've been hoping to do such things, but then I end up doing more house hunting and/or having flat tires and other fun things. And I'm so behind on the writing. And so out of ideas/talent/any ability whatsoever.

I really suck. My life has just been crazy in the non-good ways and it's affected my writing. ::Cries::

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Any of you guys going to Winchestercon in Baltimore? Last year was a lot of fun and hanging with fangirls was awesome. I admit, I was a bit wary of what I was walking into, but it was so worth it.

Thanks for the good work thoughts. Things are just...not good...right now and I'm not sure what to do. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason and that karma comes around. I am clinging to these things.

But now I shall focus on happy, good things. Because I miss happy, good things.

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These boys always make me happy and they love each other so much and just...oh, there is never enough Jared/Jensen or Sam/Dean schmoop in the world but y'all provide me with great amounts of it!

2. All of you because you rock and you offer encouragement and you're just awesome. I love you all. I really do.

3. Army Wives is coming out on dvd in June. It's the lifetime series that has Drew Fuller as the perfect husband and has Gordon from SPN as the one guy "army wife" in the group and features some interesting characters. Plus, did I mention Drew Fuller?

4. I'm a tad bit behind on my Supernatural reading, but I highly recommend pheebs1's Supernatural version of PS I Love You. It's Sam/Dean and it's sad and wonderful and just the end is so perfect.

5. I'm mailing my check for winchestercon tomorrow! And I'm totally going to get ladybug218 (And Mylia!!!) to come hang out with me there. And I can't wait to see some of you again and to meet even more of you...because it was so much fun.

I am sitting here waiting for Bebel to return from her morning class so we can go out and do some fun stuff for my last day here in Los Angeles. As she runs on Bebel's Brazillian time, we will probably get moving around dinner time.

I can't believe how fast this week went and I'm so glad I decided to go to winchestercon. Because that gave me an excuse to spend time with Bebel and Frankie. Alas, my friend, Blake, was unavailable this week. ::insert sad face::

So Wincon...

( I cut but I'm terrible with names and places and basically everything, so not really detailed... )

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Tomorrow is going to be hell day of flying. I'm still working on my sister and/or mom to pick me up at the Philadelphia airport. Neither wants to do it because my flight gets in right at rush hour. And I'm a big baby who hates Rapid Rover.

Am packed and trying to fall asleep since I leave for the airport at 5:00am. But the bright side to that is...

I will be in Los Angeles, meeting up with iamtheenemy at LAX and then we're heading to winchestercon. Woo-hoo. After that's over, I'm hanging with my second family until Thursday. If any of you from wincon are going to be around after the con, let me know and maybe we can meet up. I think Monday, my friend and I are going to CityWalk and Universal. So yes, just find me at Wincon and we can work the details out.

Those not going, don't forget there is Not Quite Winchestercon (win_non_con)!

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All I will say about SPN is I love Dean Winchester. This is not news. This never chcanges.

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I'm gonna try to do an SPN recs update to polyfandomrecs tonight, but that might not happen.

First...

Happy Birthday quarterturn!!!

I hope you have a fabulous day, darling!

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Second...

Based on the poll I did last week, there was interest in a Sports Night Holiday Exchange. So sign-ups begin today over at sn_holidays! Please pimp this out to your Sports Night pals! And let me know of any questions, concerns, etc. The due dates and what would be offered were based on the poll majority.

sn_holidays

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Third...

Work is crazy. I hate when work is crazy. Busy is fine, but crazy is stressful.

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Fourth...

Had weird dreams last night where I was the lead in the musical version of the Colbert Report. And Stephen and I were doing this huge dance number about republicans. Just very, very bizarre.

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Fifth...

winchestercon is less than two weeks away! I get to hang out with really cool people I want to meet, especially iamtheenemy! There is no one I would rather share my first con experience with than Steph and my lovely SPN Fandom Peeps!

But, for those who cannot make winchestercon, be sure to check out win_non_con. deirdre_c was a great help with it last year and this year, she is taking over! It's sure to be good times, so be sure to check that community out!

It's hump day, but this week is not going fast enough for my liking. I'm behind on episodes of Traveler (speaking of, is there any fic out there yet?), but started watching season six of Charmed over again because of my love of Chris. Maybe it will inspire me to get back to some of my many Chris stories that need writing.

Of course, that would mean that Dean and Sam Winchester would have to stop living in my brain all the freaking time. Especially jealous!Sam and daddy!Dean, my two favorite things in the world.

Alas I have to wait to purchase the permanent account over here a little bit longer. I totally forgot that i never sent in my check for the dinner part of Winchestercon, so I'm using my extra fun money for that this time around. Oh, to be rich.

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Writing things to try to work on today:

-Finish up first kisses requests
-Finish up drabble requests
-Work on Jen's b-day fic (it's only a bazillion years late)
-Work on Wyatt Halliwell Cop fic for Amy
-My new Dean entry for voicesinmyhead

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I'm slowly trying to bring my fic over here from livejournal as another back-up (my website being my first back-up), so I apologize if it appears like I'm spamming.

So how sad is it that in three days my sister and I managed to make it through eighteen episodes of Prison Break season two? We could've finished the last one, but with it being a repeat this week, we don't want it to end on some cliffhanger and then have to wait for a new episode. We've gotten accustomed to just going onto the next one.

And really, their tendency to end on a cliffhanger type note is why we got through so many.

Me - This really is the last one.

Susie - Yeah, I have shit to do.

Me - Me too.

(end of episode comes...we look at each other...)

Me - One more wouldn't hurt.

Susie - Exactly.

Practically caught up. Loving it a whole lot.

However because we were watching last night as well, I have not seen this week's Black Donnellys yet.

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New Supernatural this week! Yay! I love my show! I love Dean and Sam! I'm both excited and saddened for the end of the season. Excited because I'm sure there is good stuff coming (no spoilers please), but I can't last three months without new episodes. That's wrong and evil and WRONG. There should be new Sam and Dean on my television all the time.

Speaking of Supernatural, I love y'all like crazy, but this fandom is way too productive and prolific. I'm already behind on my reading and every time I make a dent there are about a billion new stories that intrigue me. What's a girl to do? And does anyone know of some sort of grant where I can apply for money to sit and read fanfiction all day?

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I'm very excited about winchestercon in the fall. It's the first con for both me and Steph, and I'm looking forward to it. I'm also looking forward to then staying a few extra days in Los Angeles to catch up with some of my friends that I haven't seen in awhile. I used to get out to LA at least once a year and vice versa, but with work, rent, car payments, and such, I just haven't been able to swing it. Damn adulthood.

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I'm completely losing my mind lately. I keep misplacing things or forgetting things and it's boggling my mind. I will put it out the night before, pick it up in the morning like "yes, need that" and then leave it when I leave. Take this morning for example: I pack my gym bag the night before as I leave at 6am to get in my workout before work...but I never pack my lunch ahead of time...so I'm hurrying to pack my lunch. I take out a container of soup, put it on the table NEXT to my lunch bag and leave it there. I didn't realize this until I got to work. Fun times. SO now I have to buy lunch because I'm a moron.

Honestly, I thought exercise and energy made your brain work better.

Ciao darlings!