Here I Am

Seriously weekend, where have you gone? I didn't even exercise this weekend (not allowed from doctor and mom) so that actually provided *extra* hours to my day. What is going on?

I did head to Borders with the mother because we are bibliophiles and must constantly stock up (and I use the library too - it's so sad). They had the Buffy Season 8 comic! It was the last one so I snatched it up. My mother just rolled her eyes at me, but she cannot talk. She is just obsessive about her shows and loves. I mean, she named me after a Jane Austen character for goodness sake!

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So Sweet Charity was such awesome fun! And I managed to snag a few fannish fun things without breaking the bank. I was really worried that I wouldn't be able to offer anything more than my services due to lack of fundage, but it all worked out in the end. I'm very excited about it. Maddest props to lithium_doll for organizing and running the whole thing. A whole lot of money was raised for RAINN and good fannish times are ahead. It's seriously times like this that I love fandom. It reminds me that overall people are generous and kind.

So yes, cricketkate, I am yours for the fanfiction taking. I hope I don't disappoint, darling. Hee. (And what I said in the email holds - since I totally didn't expect to go for that much money, I'm adding an extra story to the mix. So three stories, instead of two).

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Okay, I need to go beta for people before they kill me and the pain returns, causing me to collapse.

Ciao darlings!

In making the rounds on my friends list, I stumbled upon this little gem about making Supernatural fandom BNF free. And the problem I find with things like this - if you're really trying to to make a change (which I do think in a way this person was attempting - as she makes some good suggestions for newbies) - focus on the solutions rather than calling people out by name and implying things about them. Because even though she didn't "hate" on anyone, going a negative route won't garner positive results.

1) Fandom is what you make of it. I do believe that. Sure, there are things out of your control. Wank and craziness is going to happen from time to time, but for the most part, each of us decides what are online life is going to be. If you want more feedback on your stories (and I do agree that we all love comments), post it around. Sign up for challenges so you're interacting with more potential readers. Do something about it. If you want a bigger friends list, don't just friend people, but start conversations with them. And decide what you want out of your friends list ahead of time. For example, for the most part, I think of mine as a reading list...sure, I've made great friendships, but it's a list of journals of people who share my interests, produce fic/vids/recs/icons that I enjoy, and individuals I can have random conversations with via comments.

2) On that note, I really have to ask - are BNFs honestly that unapproachable? Because the list from that post? I've chatted with most of those girls at various points via comments or emails and they were all quite willing to talk back. Is it just a fear of reaching out to people? Because that's not the BNF's fault, but yours.

3) You've got to be reasonable. The more good stories you write, the more comments you're going to get. Most of these BNFs are classified as such because they produce a lot of really enjoyable fic. But I'm sure if you took the time to ask any of them about things, they'd tell you the earlier stories didn't start out with tons of comments.

4) I'm all for commenting on more fic that you read. I personally do my best to comment on all the stories that I enjoy, especially the ones I end up reccing, but I'm not always great about it. However, I find it rather insulting that if I leave feedback for a better known author, I'm fawning all over them.

And I think that's my main problem with the entire post that impertinence made. She talks to fandom as though it's comprised of idiots. I'm a grown woman. I know what I like, what I don't like, and I don't need to be scolded into doing anything because a particular person isn't getting what they want out of fandom. And really, that's how that whole post read. A few good ideas, but they were lost in this tirade of how everyone in fandom needs to do this and that.

You want an example of how to do it: dragonsinger created a community for Lesser Known Fen, where people could post recs/pimp journals of people who create really great things in fandom, but don't always get recognition. There were no demands, no bitchery...she just went about making a positive. That's what you do. (The community is littlenamefan if you're interested!)

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Anyway, I'm hoping to get caught up on massive amounts of reading and writing this weekend. I really would like to do some more with my Dean Winchester Crossover 'O Doom so that I could get it to Steph at some point.

Oh, and Steph and I are at it again. We've begun plans for a challenge idea, but we're gonna wait a few months until both our lives are a little less crazy. So expect more on that to come soon. But really, she and I...are we the best people to have these ideas? We're great at ideas, bad at follow through most of the time.

Hopefully there will be more fannish fun stuff coming later, but for now I'm hoping to finish up the work week.

Ciao!

No really, how is my weekend already over? I didn't do anything. How could it go so fast? Sister's birthday gift has been purchased. Had a surprise visit from the boy. And went to the gym. Oh, I live an interesting life.

( A random multifandom poll because really, that's all I can manage... )

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Lazy may be my favorite mood on this set. Just look at the Sammy on the bed. GAH.

Happiest of birthdays to both ethrosdemon and shattered! I hope you both have a fabulous day and are completely pampered!

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Another Monday morning is upon me and I'm so not in the mood for it, especially since it's freezing. Bah.

But what can I do?

I had Gibbs/DiNozzo centered dreams last night, which were wonderful. I think it comes from starting in on my season 4 episodes. Soon I will be up-to-date on the show. And then what will I do? I've been mainlining for awhile now and that will have to stop. So very sad.

I'm still trying to figure out why in the NCIS fandom so many of the writers are obsessed with using the word "lover" repeatedly. Saying "Tony walked into the room" would work just as well as "Gibbs watched his lover walk into the room." It just makes me want to cry.

It also seems that NCIS fiction suffers from the same sad fate as some Supernatural fic - the inability to differentiate between lose/loose. My mind boggles at the image of Tony loosing Gibbs...is that some sort of sexual act I've never heard of?

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I feel so unproductive on the fannish side lately. I'm hoping to get back into it soon, but real life and certain goals I've made for myself in regards to my real life have been keeping me busy.

I did manage to start updating my website with stories I've written over the past six months (so far behind on that) to get ready for the Remix Redux challenge. I think the only stories left to add are a few Jared/Jensen stories.

In the meantime, I'm just attempting to keep up with the friends list and bookmark stories for reading when I have more time.

Such a fun life I lead.

I love how everyone is making lists of people who can prove they are real. I find it amusing because how does proving you're real prove that you aren't buckets of crazy and in need of lots of attention?

Y'all will just have to trust that I'm real and that if this was all made up, I'd have a much more fantastical life than I currently do.

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polyfandomrecs is a year old today and I have a bunch of recs to put up. I'm just moving really slow at the moment - damn headache still hasn't gone away. (And see, in the world of imaginary persons, I'd be like *immune* to things like headaches and sinus infections).

I think Steph has some to put up as well.

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Alrighty, this is the most boring post ever. I completely forgot what I was planning to write as I succumbed to the terrible pain in my head that won't go away!. I should probably go beta the fics people have sent and Steph's ship manifesto.

And then maybe I should write something. Wouldn't that be lovely?

Ciao darlings!

I don't know if I should be flattered or what, but I seem to have attracted my first troll over at quillandink. This person has taken to going back to the very first posts ever and making comments on each post. I love people who have so much time on their hands.

Rather than getting into anything, I simply delete and ban.

Fun times.

I honestly don't get people some times. If being rude on the internet is how you get your jollies and feel good about yourself, something is lacking in your life.

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Happy Supernatural Day, darlings! Here's to a Sam and Dean episode that is chock full of wonderful things, lots of angst and banter, and shirtless boys! (A girl can dream!)

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I need to finish my story for the supernatural photo fanfiction challenge. Right now it's lingering at a page. I know what i want to happen, but Sam and Dean are not being cooperative. It's like they know I have a deadline and are toying with my emotions.

Anyone going to be up for a quick beta later today? It's sam/dean so I don't want to make ladybug218 kill herself.

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Alrighty, off to catch up on friends list and finish my story, maybe even work on Nano.

Ciao darlings!

So last night something similar to May happened to me, where all of a sudden I lost my voice and was extremely congested. Last time this happened, I had bronchitis. I go to the doctor in an hour to find out if that's the case again.

Also last night, for some freaking reason, my dvr decided the best time to act up was during Supernatural, so I missed the first part of it.

But I'm good. Wanna know why?

1) spnremixfics are open and someone wrote the perfect remix of my story "Normal People" called Overrated. It's gen fic set after Nightmare and it's brilliance. Such good stuff. Definitely recommend you guys read it and all the other stories over there.

2) The person I wrote for seems to like the remix that I did of his/her story. I was definitely worried about that.

3) Some kind anonymous person gave me six months of paid livejournal time. Thank you so much. If you want a ficlet or a five things meme, just leave me a comment - you can comment anonymously if you want to maintain the secrecy. If not, I will just pay it forward and boo someone over the weekend! Which if you haven't checked it out, boo someone!

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So, because I'm an obsessed fangirl, I still watched SPN from where I could. Such good stuff. A more thorough review will come when I download the whole episode and enjoy it. Probably several times. I just want to do bad things with Dean and squish Sam's face. Okay, unless Sam is in a towel. Then I want to do bad things with him too.

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Alrighty, I've got some work to finish before my doctor's appointment. And then I might collapse.

Ciao!

Dear Aaron Sorkin,

I love you. I love that you tend to work with the same actors and people over and over because they are the awesome. I love the potential this show has and the ease with which you always bring the banter.

Really, the only thing missing is having Josh Charles as one of the writers for the show within the show. Really. That'd put you over-the-top in the awesome category.

Love,

Tommygirl

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Not much going on in my neck of the woods. Have been trying to finish up the story 'o doom while fighting off a really bad case of disinterest in the world. I get in these moods where I'm so apathetic, it's sick, and I accomplish nothing for days at a time. So not good.

I'm ready for my fall shows to start. I'm tivo'ing a bunch of random pilots to give them chances and trying to figure out if I will stick with Vanished once other shows start. I mean, I love Gale Harold, but the FBI agency in this show is so stupid that they make NTAC (from 4400) look like brilliance. So I have to question my own shallowness: Is Gale Harold hot enough to make me watch every single week?

Really, just bring back Sam and Dean already. Okay, maybe Clark and Lex too. And we'll keep Matt and Danny on Studio 60 too.

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It's pimpage time!

Supernatural Halloween Challenge has the prompts open for claiming! There are a ton of good ones to pick from!

Supernatural Fluffathon is taking prompts until September 23rd. I know we all love the angst, but every once and awhile Sam and Dean deserve some happiness.

Summercon - svmadelyn is at it again with her brilliance, running an online multifandom convention for everyone. The posted link will take you to the first activity, prompts to write based on. Tons of prompts in all fandoms with stories right there in the comments. I wrote a little Lost, Jack/Sawyer playing poker. So go read and participate!

The Multifandom Porn Battle has the prompts listed for writing. It's running until midnight on September 24th, so go write that comment porn!

moviefanfiction is the hopefully go-to place for all movie fanfiction. I'm hoping for it to become an easy-to-navigate archive of fanfiction for movies...since I find it so damn hard to find fanfiction for movies all the time. So yeah, if you've got fic, feel free to post it...or check out the great stuff that's been posted thus far.

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More to come on Not Quite Winchestercon later. iamtheenemy and I are attempting to chat tonight to go over some main ideas and then I'll contact those that offered up their wonderful help. Because I am not full of many wonderful ideas on my own. I'm much better at pimping other's wonderful ideas. Hee.

Also, I ran it past Steph (because we are totally co-dependent when it comes to anything fandom), and she likes my Halloween idea for you guys. I don't have the stuff I need to explain it with me here at the office, so maybe tonight I'll post it. Or maybe I'll wait a little bit longer. We'll see. Mwahahahaha...no really, it's fun stuff.

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Okay, on that note, I'm going to away for a bit.

Ciao.

Our annual Member Appreciation Breakfast is next Wednesday for our office and I'm in crazed mode trying to make sure it all comes together like it's supposed to. All part of the fun of my job. Fortunately the place where we have it always does a phenomenal job of helping me make sure things are as they should be.

But I will definitely be happy once it's over.

Then I can breathe again and remember what it's like not to be insanely busy.

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Still haven't gotten my damn Supernatural dvds (really, this is why I don't usually order things like this online because I want them right now), but as my sister points out, I shouldn't be too upset as I don't have time to watch right now. And yeah, so I probably can't really do much with them until tomorrow night, but I just want the opportunity to blow off studying or work or friends in favor of Jared or Jensen. Is that asking too much?

Instead, I watched my recorded copy of Vanished and it seems that the FBI agents on this show are as dumb as NTAC on 4400. So lucky that Gale Harold is sex on a stick. Like the hottest man to ever walk the planet, or I might stop watching. Because it's so dumb and really, how can a reporter discover more information with Google than they can?

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Random Question: Why is most of the fanfiction in the Brokeback Mountain fandom about a bazillion chapters long? I don't normally do WIPs, but it's like impossible to find anything shorter or complete. Most of the WIPS are at something like 29 out of ?? How do you make it to chapter 29 and not have any idea how much is left?

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Some pimpage:

-It's not to late to make a claim for this round over at rec_50! And there's a new table of prompts to choose from so it's not same 'ole, same 'ole.

-Go read the great Ocean's Eleven/Ocean's Twelve fic that was produced for the second challenge at takethehouse. Danny, Rusty, Linus...oh fun.

-First challenge is up over at melodicmuse. Check it out and see if it inspires you to write fic.

-Spook Me Multifandom Halloween Ficathon - multifandom, sign-ups until September 12th

-Supernatural Halloween Challenge - taking prompts until September 18th, claims begin on September 19th

-Supernatural Holiday Exchange - Yeah, I try to pretend it's not that time of year, but it's almost upon us. And estrella30 said that I had to do it, so you guys have to as well. Sign-ups begin on October 1st and run until October 22nd.

-Multifandom Het Porn Challenge has the list of prompts up for grabbing with stories due September 30th

-Fic You Totally Want to Read But Are Embarrassed By looks like a whole lotta fun. Anonymous commenting is allowed and maybe you can write some fic snippets for people (or get some written for you).

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Okay, back to crazy busy working and such.

Ciao my friends!

Okay, the Devil's Trap thing is still KICKING MY ASS. I'm up to 21 freaking pages and it's still nowhere near done. Oh, how do I get myself into these things?

Due to this reason, I went through and picked one choice for the "top five" meme for each person at the moment. I'll go back and do the rest once I beat this beast of a story into submission and make it cry like a little girl.

So yeah...

( For phoebesmum - Sports Night - five impossible things Dan Rydell believed before breakfast? )

( For deirdre_c - Supernatural - Five times Dean disobeyed John )

( For chickpea - Wonderfalls - Five times Jaye almost seriously told Eric about the talking animals. )

( For aliaspiral - Joan of Arcadia - Five times Adam met God without knowing him. )

( For iamtheenemy - Alias - Five people Sark didn't kill, even though he could have. )

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Okay, I will finish this story today and then watch my betas' heads explode when they try to make heads or tails of this thing.

Ciao, my friends.