Here I Am

Argh. Long day at work, compounded by heat, exhaustion and sinus pain, only to return home to no electricity once again. Seriously starting to get annoyed. I'm a huge ass baby who loves air conditioning and hates the heat. I don't care that for years and years people survived without it. I hate heat, especially when it's chock-full of humidity.

Also signed in to see that livejournal is at it again with deletions. I'm of the belief that they do have the right to delete whatever they don't want associated with their site, but it would be nice if they clarified exactly what that is. Yes, they have the right not to provide a certain service, but then a consumer has the right to then decide that livejournal isn't the right product for them. And this is why I didn't buy the permanent account...because LJ has been so ambiguous and why would I fork out all that money if it decides it's not about its fannish side.

And what's with this new flagging system they've set up? What is this? The McCarthy era?

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On a brighter side, Carly emailed me and Steph with this information. Lance and a memoir! Oh, this is awesome! I cannot wait! I want the dish, Lance. I love you, Lance. Tell me how you made out with JC all the damn time! Tell me about the porn Joey forced you to watch on the tour bus. Tell me how Justin asked you to make out with him just to make sure he wasn't gay. Tell me it all!

I'm so sending a copy of this book with my notes to vinylroad when I'm done. We can see how close her fics were to accurate. Hee-hee. (I know most of mine are off - I made him straight. BWAH.)

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The Supernatural Friday Five - Week 43

1 Do you think Sam and Dean ever ran away/contemplated running away when they were younger? If so, do you think they would have run away together, or separately? Where would they have gone?

I'm sure Dean contemplated it at some point, but he would never act on it. His family, specifically Sam, needed him and that would've kept him. Plus, I honestly think Dean and John had a good relationship, so in Dean's mind there was no real reason to contemplate it aside from the normal angst of being a teenager. Now Sam...I could see him when he's little packing a bag and then Dean catching him and Dean totally getting him to stay. Because when he was young, Sam's whole world was made up of Dean and he didn't want to lose that even if he was mad at his dad.

2 What can you imagine Dean and Sam watching on TV when they were younger?

Sports, cartoons, and Dean loves ABC soaps, but no one is supposed to know that.

3 Imagine you're on holiday in Vancouver, and as you're wandering around Downtown, you look up to see Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles talking and walking towards you. What do you do?

Spontaneously combust! Duck into an alley as not to be seen with the drool on my chin! I don't know. Seriously, I'm not one for invading someone's space, celebrity or not, when they're just out and about. So I'd definitely look and swoon, but I doubt I'd approach them.

4 Do you think John ever gave Dean and Sam the "sex talk"? Or do you think Dean tried to be a smart-ass and explain it to his brother in his own words (while laughing in his head)?

I think Dean got a to-the-point sex talk, one that probably focused more on the being safe side rather than "sex is about love" stuff. And then Dean is probably the one that Sam went to with questions after he read everything in various books. I just can't see Sam wanting to have that conversation with his dad. As it is, I picture Sam's face getting bright red when he's asking Dean questions and dean's snickering...

5 Would you rather have an hour's time for lunch with Jared or Jensen (one of them only!) or spend an hour on the set with both boys and the crew members (although keep in mind that their attention would be divided between you and their job)?

I'd rather have an hour on the set. I love so much about this show - it would be interesting to see how it all comes together. And really, I want to one day create movies and television shows, so it would be a good experience.

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Okay, I'm going to attempt to catch up on the friends list until I end up stabbing my eye out with a spork - stupid headache.

For the record, Mondays should not be workdays. I thinks it's wrong and something to be avoided at all costs. When I rule the world, this will be one of my top priorities--along with getting stupid people put on an island, making Ben Affleck, Orlando Bloom, and Johnny Depp my love slaves who are forced to prance around in very little clothing (if any), and putting stricter requirements on those who can drive (like if I like you, you can drive...).

I have way too much to do this week and not enough time, I fear, to do it in. Yes, cry me a river.

{/ends rant}

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So due to many friends who still go to the annual Nsync event, I'm feeling particulary Nsync-ified. I might just finish that chapter tonight if Justin will let me and stop being the wee girl he has a tendency to be when I write him.

It also makes me a tad nostalgic and I want to pull out all my photos from the many years of obsessive Nsync love that I had. That's right. I was crazed. Since before the Disney concert because it had JC from MMC and how do you go wrong with that? Heh. I fear, with all the stories I've collected throughout my time as an Nsync fan, I could write a memoir of just those experiences. Sort of like the book Bye, Bye, Bye (total coincidence, I swear) about this girl's time of her life as a Bay City Roller's groupie.

Is that my future?

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Went to this very long focus group on two television shows and it:

1) explained why I hate most television so much these days.

2) gave me hope. Because these two shows not only got optioned, but greenlighted at some point. somewhere along the way, actors agreed to play these roles and someone was willing to direct it. So if this crap can get made, surely my stuff will one day be recognized as brilliant. Or at the very least, optioned. (And no longer will the words "but it needs more tits" be uttered at me regarding spec scripts or the likes)

And this leads me to Entourage the new HBO show from Marky Mark ("feel it, feel it..."), which is so frighteningly accurate a portrayal of things that I want to curl up in a ball and die. Though most of the assistants of agents that I know tend not to get asked out by It actors or their managers. That seems more fanfiction-esque than anything.

This is the world I hope to live out the rest of my days in, people. How crazy does that make me? I mean, I've already accepted that my soul will be sucked out one day and that people like Jeremy Piven's character are my future, but...

Ain't life grand?

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Still working on the remaining requests for drabbles/ficlets and a few other things. Time has this way of escaping me and since today is the first day my wrists have been okay enough for me to drive--I've got tons of errands to run.

So...enough blathering. I'm out.