Here I Am

So I figure one way to get my posting more and reconnecting with my fannish side might be to take part in the snow-flake challenge. I'll be playing a little catch up for the first few days, so I'll probably try to do more than one until I'm on schedule, but it's a start.



( Day One... )

Last night I had a dream that rather than being sent to hell Dean ended up on Galatica and was having lots of hot sex with Kara. He had no memory of anything, including Sam, but then...I guess they found earth because they're back on Earth and Sam finds Dean and Dean remembers, and then Dean is angsty!torn between his love for Sam and his hots for Kara. There was also a few fights with cylons, but I was mostly paying attention to the making out.

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So I may have started writing the most improbable love story ever - the tale of Michael Phelps/Dean Winchester (with special appearances by David Cook). Yeah, I doubt anyone but maybe chickpea would *want* to read it, but basically, after the weekend I had, I wanted some hot boys making out, even if it made no sense WHATSOEVER!

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Must finish my oldschoolfic today. It's started, but I can't exactly turn in a page and call it a story. That would be terrible. The problem I'm having is that when I sit down to write I find myself writing schmoopy stuff that I would only share with myself. And while I'm at least writing, that's not exactly helping my fic challenges cause. Or my Heroes big boom. Or many other things lingering on my C: Drive.

Mwahahahaha...the project 'o doom is done and in the hands of my betas. I feel really bad for cutting it so close for them (I want to post the thing Thursday morning for everyone to enjoy on premiere day!), but really, those last two scenes would not come out.

Again, Tommygirl is never allowed to have a *brilliant* idea again.

Well, after this one...

The community name is a joke, my friends. We're dirty organizer types and laughed about it. It's not for non-con.

So yes, save the date, people. We're still working out exactly when the community will open for membership and such, but it's a coming rather quickly.

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Not much else to report. Actually was expected to do work at my office today (how rude!) and then I finished project 'o doom. So yeah, all the wonderful fic and such will have to wait until tomorrow for me. As I am dead on my feet. And I want to watch Heroes and Studio 60 and then dream about really pretty boys making out for me.

Ciao.

Guess what, my friends? There will be fic today. It's another of the ABC drabbles (which I'm going to stop calling "drabbles" as this one is at 3 pages and not quite done yet) that I haven't forgotten. Of course, it's not the Multiverse story that needs to be done and beta'd by Friday. I'm having a bit of anxiety about this one as it's two characters that I love, but have never written, but also, I'm writing for someone whose writing I love and admire. I want it to be good, but everytime I look at it, I just can't write anything decent. So I started one of the "drabbles" instead.

Oh writing, you fickle fiend. Why can't you just work the way I want you to?

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Considering how last weekend started and how angry/frustrated/depressed with life I was, it has taken a wonderful turn and I've figured a few things out. It helps to rewatch Entourage over and over again. As does staring at pretty pictures of hot boys.

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Tonight there is new Project Runway. This is my first time watching as the season goes since I pretty much ingested season two last weekend, so I wonder if my patience will hold out. I wonder if I will get overly-attached to one designer like I did in season two (Daniel...I loved that boy so much. If he hadn't made it to the final two, I would've killed someone.). I wonder if there will be a blatant gay man who passes himself off as straight. I wonder who will bring the drama.

And really will there ever be a better OTP than Tim/Andre? I think not.

I gave that Rockstar Supernova show a try last week, but only two of the singers were good (that girl who did the Nirvana was freaking amazing and creepy, but she's not enough to keep me watching). Considering how much television I already watch, it just doesn't seem like something to waste my time on. Just not my thing.

Also tonight that new Stephen King miniseries thing starts. Luckily my DVR records two things at once. So I'll be able to see it.

Remember a time when summer was the dead time for television? I sorta miss it in that I got stuff accomplished when there was no new television aside from my ABC soaps. Now though: Entourage, 4400, Psych, Hex, Project Runway, Last Comic Standing...Goodness. I watch as much television in the summer as I do throughout the year.

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Finally, I've got a vox account account now. I don't have any invites yet, but if you have an account and want to friend me:

http://tommygirl.vox.com/

Shocking username, I know. I'm so very original and unique. I'm not sure how often I'll use it. I'm playing around with it now, trying to figure it out. I prefer livejournal because I don't adapt well to change and really this is my favorite place online...but that has never stopped me from collecting journals elsewhere before.

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Okay, off to finish up this ficlet, try to work on the Multiverse story of doom, and catch up on friends list. Hopefully this weekend I will get caught up on the fanfiction. I'm so behind at the moment and you guys keep churning out more and more good stuff.

Ciao my friends!

For the record, since I've gotten about five emails this past week, I do plan to finish Trouble In My Head. I will find my Justin Timberlake muse again (maybe it's time to pull out the Making of the Tour dvd - that thing never ceases to fill me with immense love for those boys), but I've always been a fickle girl when shiny new boys are put in front of my face. And a lot of them are so interesting that I want to fic them like mad. So poor Justin and Laney await a time for me to go back and finish the story.

But it will be done. It might take ten years, but dammit, I will finish it - because I don't know how to let things go...and iamtheenemy threatened to kill me (or worse, finish the story herself and she would kill Frankie - and I happen to like him.)

I used to be much better with my WIPs. It might've taken me ten years to update, but it was just the one story - and then I went and became all polyfannish. Sorry dudes.

If it's any consolation, both Steph and I have signed up for Sesa. Although with my luck I'll get someone who wants a fucking Joey-centric story. It's like the story of my life, that damn Fatone boy when all I want is a nice helping of Chasez.

And yes, for the people who are newer to this journal, I do write RPS/RPF from time to time...and I was a pop fiction girl to boot. I'm evil incarnate - feel my wrath...

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While on the topic of pop music in a way...Steph did the most horrible thing. She had me listen to Kevin Federline's rap music. He's making an album. And my ears, they bleed. Oh Brit, it's not bad enough that the two of you had a television show, but because he's Mr. Spears he gets a record deal?

::weeps::

Remember the good days, when you had to have talent to get a record deal...like Joey Lawrence. Now that was talent, my friends.

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I've decided that everyone on my friends list should go read Twilight by Stephanie Meyer and then write me lots of Edward Cullen-centric fanfiction. Am I allowed to demand such things?

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Forgive me...I've ingested quite a bit of sugar today in my attempts to write. These attempts ended with me actually reading over old stuff and reorganizing my files in a new manner. I also watched the week's worth of One Life to Live on my Tivo. Oh Nash, I love you - you're so much better than Antonio.

Okay, I'm off (not just mentally) - I really should attempt some writing before I crash.

passing the time until this day is done. Very busy. Very gross out - damn you allergies!

Anyway, more interview questions. Ask me some questions or ask for some questions...

( Questions from spy_barbie... )

( Questions from my partner in crime, the evilest of weebles... )

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Does anyone want to take over writing Trouble In My Head for me? Really? Anyone out there?

Laney is still being difficult and I've got no bloody interest in difficult when I have a Lee Adama muse that wants my attention and then this weird ohmygodtheover-the-top angst bunny for Seth/Ryan. And of course, there is always Chris...

So Laney really needs to start being more conducive to letting me write this chapter. Because how can I even begin to fix things between her and Justin if I can't get through one damn chapter.

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Not much else to report. Baffled by the crazy lady/bride that reported her own kidnapping - dude, this is why I don't think marriage is necessary and that living in sin can be much more fun. Wasn't sure whether the President was being ironic during his press conference when he uttered the words "energy plan." Tired and sore from packing boxes for a friend. And feeling quite lazy that I did absolutely NO writing this weekend. None. Aside from making the edits to a piece that was beta'd, there was no use of WORD.

So on that note, I shall go flog myself and wish away the remainder of the day.

Ciao.

Dear Laney,

You are one of my favorite original characters of all time that I have created. Yeah, that's right. I created you...so I don't think I'm asking for too much for you to get your act together enough for me to finish up this chapter of TIMH. It's been a very long time between updates...and yes, I realize that most of that is my doing as I'm a lazy sort of a girl with a very short attention span who moves onto the newest shiny thing. However, if you could stop sounding like Justin every time I go to write, that would be great. Remember him? He's the whiny bastard, not you.

Get yourself together. Be pissy! Be annoyed! Be quoting movies left and right! But do not mope about like Justin. Otherwise, what will Justin do next chapter when it's his POV?

Love,

Tommy

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I have progressed a bit on TIMH for the three of you that care. I wrote another 146 words, so we might be able to avoid the scenario where iamtheeenemy takes over writing duty and kills Frankie off. Then again, I think I'm the only person who doesn't hold Frankie solely responsible for Laney and Justin's break-up.

Oh well.

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So allow me to procrastinate and do that meme that everyone else and their mother has done.

1. Below are fifteen of my fandoms.
2. Guess my favourite character/pairing.
3. Or, if you really want to, guess the character I loathed.
4. Once it's guessed, I'll bold it and then squee/rant about them.


( Below are the list of fifteen for you all to have fun with! )

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Someone entertain me! I just have no energy to write anymore. I could work on something else. Possibly my Earth 2 story...or my O.C. story...or one of those that will probably never end/get done/never been seen by more than maybe one other person.

Alrighty, off I go to find something to do...I mean, write

I have survived cleaning off the cars. The good thing about apartment living is that my shoveling is drastically reduced from when we had the big corner house. Do think that the majority of the people in my building are lazy asses who don't pay attention to a simple request from the landlords to "in the morning, please move vehicles to the adjacent parking lot." It's the lot no one uses and it was already plowed. But no, we have asses who just leave their cars in the main lot and it's ugly out there. Fuckers.

I hate snow. Lazy people like myself shouldn't live in areas where things like snow occur.

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[Poll #423531]

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( Writing meme 1 with questions answered... )

( writing meme 2 - the posting of lines from stories... )

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Eagles game is on. Couldn't care less, but I know everyone else in the goddamn region does. Instead, I shall fic for a bit. So answer my poll and entertain me!

Woo-hoo! Progress! I'm making progress on my yuletide story! I've got a 1000 words! It's not nearly done and it's going to need some rewrites before going to beta, but yay! I'm making progress.

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Have you ever read back over one of your own stories and really loved it? I mean, I usually enjoy all my stories - well, most of them anyway - because it's stuff that I wanted to see written, stuff that I enjoy. But there are certain stories that when I re-read them, I actually wonder if I wrote it and think it's a great story.

This came about because I was reading over some of my Alias stuff and stumbled upon A Shift In The Wind. It's Season Three Sydney angst, but I actually like the premise of the story. The use of her love of books to set up the story and the idea that Sydney is going to try to get over this woe-is-me feeling she has.

I don't know. I never know when it becomes arrogance on a writer's part or simply an ability to recognize good work.

Oh well, ignore this ramble. I'm trying to avoid writing and I really can't afford to do that at the moment.

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Must watch last night's Veronica Mars tonight. Maybe start wrapping some of the gifts I've purchased (I finished the last of my shopping on my lunch break today! Hurrah! I'm done!)

But for now, I'm off to try to fill the last ten minutes of work with meaningless crap.

Ciao.

My job is sucking out my soul.

In other news, a somewhat brief writing memo to appease my need to rebel against my workplace for a few minutes.

Another Writing Survey that I stole from musesfool

1. What's the favorite story (i.e.: 1) you've ever written and why?

I know it’s probably not appropriate, but I have deep love for almost every one of my stories for different reasons. But I guess my favorite would be Reinventions because I somehow managed to write an old-fashioned romance – who knew I had it in me?

2. What're questions you're most frequently asked?

“Are you friends with Justin Timberlake?” and “When are you going to update?”

3. What're your thoughts on betas?

I think it’s imperative to have a few people that you can trust to read your stuff and basically just help you to reshape it into something marvellous. No matter how many times you edit on your own (which, as a compulsive edit Nazi, I have a tendency to do), you’ll still miss things that someone who doesn’t live in your head might not.

4. How important is canon?

You have to know canon before you can write a decent fanfiction. All fanfiction (A/U and crossovers included) is based off the canon. The way the characters would react to things, their interactions with other people, the activities they would find themselves caught up in. If you don’t know canon, I don’t know how your story is anything more than original work with the canon character’s names.

5. What're your fanfic pet peeves?

This is a can of worms I doubt anyone wants opened, but I guess my main ones are based on my above answer. I don’t like it when a character acts completely different without a very good reason. I hate people messing up characters I love without any cause for it. I have no problems with A/U or original characters in a piece as long as you maintain the characters that I love. Also, if you don’t know the basics of writing, please don’t force it upon others without someone beta’ing it. I won’t read things IN ONE BIG PARAGRAPH.

6. What's your favorite (ie: 1) story you've ever read and why?

This is an evil question! Can I just say anything that Lady Lit ever wrote was always brilliant! I was so in love with her stuff and talent. Alas, her site is no more, but her stuff was what great writing was all about.

As for a story that still exists: I love My Little Mary by Steph iamtheenemy because it was back in the day when people only wrote Chris Kirkpatrick as being “the funny one” and Steph actually gives his character some dimension…and it’s just an adorable little romance.

7. What quote applies most to you and why?
“I don’t feel the need to explain my art to you, Warren.”


8. Do you outline/brainstorm?

I mull things over in my head for awhile before putting them to paper, but usually my brainstorming/outlines is my first draft. I just write and edit and write…and then by the time the first draft is done, I have a basic idea of what I’m trying to accomplish. For my WIPs, well, I just have an idea in my head of what I want to happen and where I want my characters to go – sometimes the characters end up changing that on me…which is why I tend not to use outlines. I can’t seem to function with outlines.

9. Computer or pen and paper?

Both. I prefer to do my very first drafts in a notebook and then type them into the computer, changing it as I go, but sometimes it’s simpler to type it right into the computer.

10. What's your muse's name and favorite temptation to be creative?

His name is the evil, angsty Chris Perry! Okay, it actually depends on what I’m writing. I don’t know that my muse has a name besides what I refer to it as “goddamn pain in my ass!”

I’m not sure what “favorite temptation” means unless it’s what really makes you tick as far as writing goes. And I don’t know – I vary. I love it all really. I love writing tons of different scenarios for tons of different characters.